At times I hate myself for loving you
And at times I feel you don’t deserve my love
You don’t kiss me
Hug me or touch me
Unless you want sex
I know this all too well
I’ve lived it all too long
I tell myself I won’t give in next time
But I do each and every time
But what I haven’t told you
Its not because I actually want sex
It’s the connection I crave
The closeness I don’t get any other time
Don’t say its not true
Or that I’m exaggerating
You dam well know it
I don’t think I should have to ask you
To support me when you know I need it most
But I did
I opened up to you
Told you how much I needed you
Which was the hardest thing to do
And you know what?
I got absolutely nothing
Here’s Mr. ‘I’ll put my cuddle cape on’
And gave me not even one
You didn’t support me when I needed you most
You weren’t the partner you should have been
I know you are going through your shit right now too
But come on, its supposed to go both ways here
It’s not always about you
